Welcome to the second installment of HelloBeautiful’s new series “Diaries of a Skinny Fat Girl.” Each week HelloBeautiful will go underneath the skinny jeans and loose fitting shirts of our readers to uncover their battles of the bulge. This week we’re hearing from “The Business Analyst who’s in a fight with the Food Devil.”
Weekly Goals: Workout 3-4 times a week, loose 5 lbs, and return to my weekly Weight Watchers meetings.
5:30 a.m.: I woke up to the loud sounds of my alarm and cell phone. I tell myself I’ll get up in 10 mins to work out and have breakfast. I then roll over and press the snooze button.
7:00 a.m.: I am now up. Of course, I’m rushing for work and must be out of the house in an hour. I shower quickly, flat iron my hair, and iron my clothes. All the while, I am thinking, “what am I going to eat for breakfast?”
8:00 a.m.: I am finally dress and ready for work. Thankfully, I prepared lunch last night so I just grab my healthy lunch of cooked cabbage, an apple, roasted sweet potatoes from the fridge. For a snack I grab a rice cake and 2 tablespoons of natural peanut butter. I’m determined to reach my goal this week.
9:00 a.m.: I grab a fruit salad on the way to work. However, as soon as I walk in the door to my office, I hear loud chatter coming from the office kitchen. OH NO!!!! Someone decided to bring in dozens of baked cookies from a weekend holiday party. Oh hell naw, the devil is trying to sabotage me!
10:15 a.m.: I can’t resist the temptation. I convince myself that it’s ok to just look at the goodies. Wrong move! I grab two chocolate chip cookies and head back to my desk. As I indulge in the bliss of those cookies I feel a sense of pleasure and agony. Oh well I start over the next hour.
12:00 p.m.: I eat my healthy lunch. I’m completely satisfied. Yes I messed up a little this morning but if I stay on track I can reach my goal.
3:00 p.m.: I eat my rice cake and peanut butter. Its ok, but lord knows I would love another one of those cookies. I give into the devil and grab 2 sugar cookies from the office kitchen. I think to myself I’m going to have to workout an extra 20 mins tonight.
6:30 p.m.: I meet my trainer for our one-on-one session. I put my all into our 1 hour together. I’m going to work off those cookies!
8:00 p.m.: On my way home from the gym, I stop by the grocery story. Its cold outside and I want to cook some collard greens and turkey neckbones. It’s a country meal, I know lol. But it’s healthy and would be tasty.
8:45 p.m.: I arrive put my turkey neckbones in the slow cooker. I’ll let them cook over night. Eat a small salad and prepare for bed.
11:00 p.m.: In the bed I say a quick prayer to God asking him to help me on this journey. Lord, knows its going to take Him to help me fight the food devil.
7:00 a.m.: I’m tired and sore as hell from working out last night. I snooze for 25 more minutes.
9:15 a.m.: I had already decided on my drive to work that I deserve a treat this morning. I mean I worked my butt off last night. So, I stop by my favorite deli to grab a freshly baked blueberry muffin.
12:00 p.m.: I eat my boring lunch. I’m satisfied at the moment. But I know I’m going to be hungry later.
3:30 p.m.: Yep I’m hungry. I grab my coat and head out into the cold to make a quick trip to the Subway Restaurant, about 5 blocks away. I grab a healthy oven-roasted chicken salad with fat-free Italian dressing.
6:00 p.m.: My salad from Subway was so good that I decide to get another one on the way home from work.
7:15 p.m.: I get home eat my salad quickly. I start cooking the collards I had brought yesterday by first reheating the neckbones in the slow cooker. I figure that while these are cooking I can get 30 mins of cardio in. So I run down to the gym in my condo building.
5:30 a.m.: I hit the snooze button for the first of about 20 times this morning.
7:30 a.m.: After snoozing for 2 hours and trying to convince myself to get up, I finally decide to get out the bed. I cut the TV on and decide that I don’t care whether or not I’m extremely late this morning. It’s just one of them days…
11:00 a.m.: I’m extremely hungry because I didn’t eat breakfast. I decide to eat my lunch early. I’m excited because I’m finally eating the collard greens and neckbones I slaved two days over. They are just as yummy as I thought. The only thing missing is the sweet-buttery cornbread my grandmother makes. But of course, I had to pass on that. Oh well, for now this will do.
2:00 p.m.: I’m hungry again. I eat a salad that I brought from home. That satisfies me for a short moment but I’m now starting to crave something sweet.
3:00 p.m.: I’m really not trying to give into my craving for chocolate. I do everything to avoid breaking down. I try eating a pear but that does nothing for me. I eat a spoonful of natural peanut butter, that does nothing. I overhear my co-workers discussing the new box of chocolate covered cookies someone brought in. I give up this battle. I can’t fight the food devil this time. I grab two chocolate covered wafers. It felt like heaven
4:30 p.m.: I’m not feeling too well. The first few days of my monthly friend are horrible for me. I text my trainer telling him I wont be able to make our session today.
6:30 p.m.: I’m finally home after a long day. I heat up a plate of collard greens and open a bag of salad. Dinner is yummy and satisfying.
9:30 p.m.: I’m in the bed early for a change. But I’m still craving chocolate. I breakdown once again and grab one of the mini Take-5 bars I keep in the freezer. I eat the chocolate bar quickly and proceed to bed.
7:30 a.m.: I actually slept through my alarm clock and didn’t wake up until my body was ready. Damn! Once again I’m rushing this morning.
8:15 a.m.: I eat a quick bowl of Special K-Blueberry and head out of the house.
9:30 a.m.: On the way to work I get excited thinking about my Weight Watchers class this evening. I haven’t been there in months! I have promised myself that I can’t make any excuse this week for not going.
12 p.m.: I eat more of collard greens and neckbones. They are still quite tasty but I’m starting to get bored.
3:00 p.m.: I eat a pear, 2 rice cakes and 2 tablespoons of natural peanut butter.
6:30 p.m.: I left work early to make it to Weight Watchers. This is the first time I have been to this particular location. Weight Watchers has a new plan that they just released 2 weeks ago. Damn, this means I gotta learn the entire program all over again. During the meeting, I stepped on the scale and become disappointed because I have only lost 2lb since Sunday when I last weighed myself. I beat myself up because I know I shouldn’t have had any of those cookies or chocolate bars this week.
7:15 p.m.: I get the best text in the world from my trainer! He tells me he isn’t going to weigh me in the morning because he knows my monthly friend is here this week. The Lord steps in right on time!!!! I definitely didn’t want to see the look of disappointment on his face tomorrow.
8:30 p.m.: I eat a bowl of Special K – Chocolate Delight. I can’t stop it with this chocolate craving.
9:00 p.m.: I quickly prepare my gym bag and clothes for work. I have to get up bright and early in the am to meet my trainer.
5:00 a.m.: I wake up eat a bowl of Special K – Blueberry flavor and slowly get ready to meet my trainer.
6:30 a.m..: I arrive at the gym. I put my all into my workout session although I feel like crap.
9:30 a.m.: I eat a pear at my desk.
12:00 p.m.: I meet my sister for lunch at Union Station. I really want to have a lunch full of grease. But I opt to get a sandwich from Subway Restaurant. Sure it’s boring, but I’m just happy to have a piece of bread.
8:00 p.m.: After a long week of work I decide to spend Friday night alone. I cook a big and juicy turkey burger and bake French Fries. Watch a little tv and then I’m out for the night.
11:30 a.m.: I rush to my bi-weekly hair appointment. I try to talk myself out of eating one of the mini red-velvet cupcakes they have displayed. Of course I give in. Thankfully, it wasn’t as good as it looked. Otherwise, I’m sure I would have grabbed another one.
6:00 p.m.: I did a bunch of errands today and semi forgot to eat. I say semi only because this evening I have a holiday party at one of the most fabulous hotels in the city. I’m not going to think at all about calories this evening. Nevertheless, because I don’t want to over do it, I eat a salad and bake French Fries.
9:00 p.m.: At the party I enjoy a few mixed drinks and the best damn chocolate mousse-fudge cake I have ever had. I don’t even feel bad at all. Shoot, sometimes you just gotta live in the moment.
12 p.m.: After church I head to brunch with a group of friends at the trendy restaurant Matchbox. Matchbox has the best pizza and I couldn’t resist. Instead of ordering brunch food, I order a personal pizza: ½ veggie and ½ chicken. I eat every piece of that pizza. Damn it was good. I’m stuff and won’t eat anything else today.
Totals: Overall this week was a moderately successful. I did reach my goal of working out at least 3 times this week and attending Weight Watchers. However, I lost 3lbs instead of the 5lbs I wanted to lose. I blame myself for giving into my love of sweets. Oh well, we will try again next week.